not alone

Okay, it was good today to find out I am not alone. I mentioned to my family that I am in a 'slump'. I am tired, no, make that - exhausted. I am angry, hurt, and totally tired of my life. And I am not sure how to get out....of the slump, I mean.
For the last several days, I have been in total prayer. Even last night, slept about 3 hours. Every time I woke up, I realized I was praying. But the feeling is still there.
I feel like chopped liver. No one notices me, and if they do, it is to complain about something I have done, or actually, what someone has perceived that I did. Then, a very exciting event happened, but I am not to 'let anyone know yet."
So, after school, I met my friend, Laura, at DQ for ice cream, or in my case, Mocha Moolatta, and I found out that she is also in a 'slump'.

Thank you God. It is good that I am not alone. Of course, neither one of us knows the answer to it.

But talking to my mom just now, I realized it has been a long time since I had 'fun'. Fun = getting out of town, spending money on myself, spending time away from TAKS, students, tech issues, pressures to fix computers, or find tech answers, washing dishes, clothes, mowing, worrying about money, insurance, medical issues, etc.

So....I am leaving town this Saturday. I just decided. Alone, or by myself, I deserve it. And I pray it works.